I’m back at peace now–
But for days, what seemed like years, I felt I needed this “thing”.
This desire felt so strong, and I was certain that this would be the next step.
It would definitely propel me to increased happiness and fulfillment.
However, this excitement transformed into a strong wave of anxiety that was about to engulf me.
Which is how I knew this couldn’t be decided now, not because I was giving into fear,
but because in that moment I realized that I am truly at peace with what already is.
The wave receded, for I knew that I didn’t need anything else.
I gave myself the opportunity to explore this desire, and listened when my soul said, I am full.